EE VAIKIYA VELAYIL

VAIKI VIDARUNNA POOKKALKKU ENTHU SUGANDHAMAANU
PAKAL MUZHUVAN THAPASSU CHEYTHU NEDUNNA PUNYAM!
RAAVERECHENNU PADUNNA RAAPPADI
RATHRIYUDETHU PRIYASANGITAM
VAIKIYENKILUM ETHUNNA MAZHAMEGHANGAL
BHOOMIYUDE PRARTHANA SAAPHALYAM!
PARAYUVAN VAIKIYATHUM,KELKKUVAN VAIKIYATHUM
NAMMUDE MAATHRAM NASHTANGAL

MADH HOSH

HAZAAROM PHOOL JAB KHIL UDE,
AUR KHUSHBOO PHAILAYE THO
MADH HOSH HO JAATE HAIN!
GOONJ UDE KOYAL HAZAAROM TO
MADH HOSH HO JAATE HAIN!
CHAMKE JAB TAARE HAZAAR GAGAN MEIN THO
MADH HOSH HO JAATE HAIN!
DEKHOOM TUJHE EK BAAR THO
MADH HOSH HO JAATE HAIN!
KAR LOOM EK BAAT TUMSE THO
MADH HOSH HO JAATE HAIN!
AAZMAAOOM TUMKO THO
KYA HAUM RAH PAAYEM?!

Priyappetta

PRIYAPPETTA

Urangaathe poonilakkulirettu ninnekkurich-
orthirikkuvanenthu rasamaanu!
Arikilillenkilum kannu chimmaathe
ninne nokkiyirikkuvanenthu rasamaanu!
Paaduvanariyillenkilum varikalillenkilum
ninnekkurichu paaduvanenthu rasamaanu!
Dooreyaanu neeyennirikkilum nin padaswanam
kaathorthirikkanenthu rasamaanu!
Onnu thoduvaanaavillenkilum ninte
aayiram chumbanangalude madhuramenthu rasamaanu!
Onnumennodu chollarikkarillenkilum ninte
madhuvoorunna vaakkukalenthu rasamaanu!
Snehamaanennu naam paranjillayenkilum
snehikkunnennarinjathenthu rasamaanu!
Ente mizhikalilooriya neerkkanam
ninte hridayathil veenu chithariyathenthu rasamaanu!
Ninte chundilooriya puchirippookkal
ente manassil mazhayaaypeithathenthu rasamaanu!
Aduthathillenkilum pirinjathillenkilumee
virahathinte nertha vedanayenthu rasamaanu!

Neeyentethallenkilum njan nintethumallenkilum
neeyenteyum njan ninteyumaayirikkunnathu enthu rasamaanu!
Iniyoru janmamundenkilannum pinneyum janmaantharangalil
nintethayirikkuvaanenthu rasamaanu!

PARAYAATHATHU

Parayaathathu
Peyhtozhinja maanathu parakkunna ilaveyil pole manoharamaanu
Karanjutheernna mukhathu vidarunna punchiri
Niranilaavil vidarunna kudamullappookkalkku
Nilaavinte bhangiyundu,sugandhavum
Swapnathil kanda ninte mukhanthinu ilaveyil choodum,narunilakkulirum
Sugandhavum,paathividornnora kusrithichiriyum.
Ethra nukarnnittum theeraatha madhuramaai
Snehame neeyente munnilnikkumbol
Engane parayum mathiyennu jeevithathodu?
Pokuvaan vaikiyennu sandhyayum
Iniyumereyundennu pulariyum mozhiyunnu.
Pokaathe vayyennariyaamenkilum janmaantharangalil nee
Koodeyundenkilennaashichu pokunnu manavum.
Oru kaattaai,ozhukum puzhayai, meghasangitamaai
Vidarumoru poovaayaalum, ariyunnu njan ninne, nirayunnu neeyennilum.

Happy my friend?

Tell me now,
Are you happy?
Greener are the meadows
Does the leaves rustle the same?
Do you stil teach how to teach?
and how knowledge won by many a ways?
How are your new friends?
Does any of them evoke my memories?
The door to your house remains closed.
I just knock once and go my way.
Your journeys are long and distant.
How long and whereto I don't know.
You no longer tell me the names of the books you read.
No longer mind my presence,
I feel non existent.
Our precious secrets, are they intact?
or have you strewn them to the wind?
My dearest, how estranged have you become
Why? I know not!
The skeletons of our eternal friendship
rattles in the golden coffin.

Tell me now,
are you really happy?
(21/11/09)

I love………..

I pray God that I be able
to love all.
But fail miserably.
I love people
with eyes of God
words of angels
tread of winds
wings of birds
thirst of waves
lust of earth
Who,
drinks of rains
thrives on verses and,
born of silence.
(16/11/09)

ADIEU.......

I LOVED FOR YOUR
SIMPLE WAYS
UNKEMPT HAIR
SLACKENED DRESS
CARELESS GAIT
THOUGHTFUL FACE
GRACEFUL SMILES.

BUT NOW MY FRIEND
YOU'VE BECOME SOPHISTICATED
A FAR CRY FROM YOUR FORMER SELF
I KNOW NOT YOU.

YOU TREAD ON LANDS UNKNOWN TO ME
SPEAKS A TONGUE SO STRANGE TO ME
HAVE THE LOOKS ALIEN TO ME
AND SO I TAKE MY LEAVE
PARDON ME!

I SHALL MEET YOU WHEN TIMES GO BY
WHEN
YOU AND ME ARE STRIPPED OF FLESH
AND BARE TO SOUL!
FLYING HIGH
MAKES TRUE PROPHECIES.

HOW SHALL YOU KNOW ME
FOR SOULS ARE ALIKE IN EVERY WAY.
I SHALL TELL YOU
YOU SHALL KNOW ME FROM YOUR LOVELY
KISSES ON MY SOUL,WHICH,
I PRESERVE SO FOND!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

ON YOUR BIRTHDAY
MY DEAREST FRIEND
WHAT SHALL I WISH FOR YOU?
SHALL I PRAY GOD THAT
U LIVE A LONG AS I
BUT I'M AFRAID
SO FRAIL ARE HUMAN LIVES!

AS THE WAVES LASHING THE
SHORE PERHAPS?!
NO, AFTER ALL THE WATER IS THE SAME
AND WAVES TREACHEROUS!

OR MAY BE AS THE UMPTEEN STARS
PERMEATING THE NIGHTSKY?
BUT STARS TOO DIE THEY SAY

WELL,I SHALL PRAY THAT YOU LIVE
AS LONG AS I LOVE YOU
FOR WHICH I CAN VOUCH FOR
BLINDFOLD, IS ETERNAL!

SO LIVE UNTO ETERNITY,DEAREST
TRANSCENDING ALL THE VICES OF THE WORLD
LET NO PAIN OR SORROW TOUCH YOU
LIVE LONG TILL THE FRAGRANCE OF LOVE ENDURES!(03/08/09)

ABANDONED

You have gone so far away
So far away into oblivion
And pity,
‘tis only now I realize
how much I needed you (cliché!).
Your breath kept me alive.
How suffocating I am now!
I always followed your footsteps,
now my steps have gone astray.
The Sun and the moon doth shine still
But I’d thrived on the brightness of your b’smiles.
I gather you strewn memories
Like precious gems lost on sand.
One I retrieve, it tells of another
I seek out that and then its another!
Were you so dear and near to me
I wonder! For so profuse are these gems!
Sorry,
I can’t recollect your face.
Was it fair or dark? Of what shape?
Just a presence, and the smiles that glowed, were you
Taken for granted!
Happy that you will be there,happy that
I’ll be loved, come what may!
Yes you were taken for granted.
Friend so dearest, heart that you loved
Loved so fondest, days those precious!
Oh the clouds that wander high above
Rain on me that love which
I squandered away.
A drop,Oh dear! a single precious drop
from your heart…..
(01/11/2009)

AGONY

Today I chopped my heart to pieces umpteen
so that even I too may not recognize
twas an organ that kept me live
fed me love till i lived
and spread my love till i lived.
I rose high above the sky so high
and scattered them to the West wind that blew
let it drift it in its wake.
Rejoice! I'm no more.
Dead on the day I was born!
-(30/10/09)

Outcome

I quarreled with an hon’ble man
an hon’ble man indeed was he.
Silly, he called me
silly I was but he too were silly.
We fought like cats and dogs
Till blood seeped though the flesh.
Words flew like slingshots
Who was the best? neither could decide
Rains drowned our words, but
who cared, the quarrel went off well.
Who was the first to stop
neither noticed, for weary were we equally.
Then looked for each other’s wounds
Does it hurt you my dear?
He asked, but I was concerned for his’
After all an hon’ble man he was and me, silly
But then we locked our hands and
Oblivious of what happened, parted as friends.
So deep was the pain in out hearts
In that we quarreled, for,
We never forgave each other
And never spoke again.
For, inscrutable are the ways of love!

(17/07/09)

Forgetting

Forgetting is never so difficult.

Cut off all contacts.
No words, no calls.
Speak no more of it.
If you pass by,
Feign unfamiliarity
You never knew
That’s past even grave.
Seek amity anew,
Speak not of yest.
Roses once withered are
Dead forever!

Despite all efforts.

Heart is such a bizarre thing
Drags you back
Makes you walk through lanes old
Makes you listen to words
Spoken long back
Promises made in the yonder
Makes you feel the warmth
Of kisses shared in camera
And makes you wail in utmost agony
Silent screams that shatters eardrums.

Forgetting is never so easy.

(18/10/09)

Misunderstanding

Don't be mistaken
I love not not you,
nor vie for your love.
I sing no not in praise of you
nor bereave your absences.
I write no not of you
nor share your dreams.
I wander no not seeking you
for I abhor human bonds.
A wisp of cloud exhilarates me
a drop of rain makes me dizzy.
A bloom drenched in dew is my greatest love
a moonlit night is an all time passion.
Like a willo'the wisp wafting in the air
here am I today, gone tomorrow.
Love me not, I love not you
Hate me not,I hate not you!

And still I call you my friend

I want to speak to you a lot my dear friend
But you never give an ear to my words
And still I call you my friend!
You speak your words and that’s it
And never answers my queries
And still I call you my friend!
Wonder what binds you to me and me to you!
Never have me met so often
Nor exchanged smiles so often
And still I call you my friend!
You call me when you are alone
Just to fill in your solitudes
And still I call you my friend!
You say I’m so dear to you, a precious possession
But never tried to meet me ever!
And still I call you my friend!
You are aloof to me in nearness
But so fond in remoteness
And still I call you my friend!
I feel as an object of frolicking
trivial, irrelevant, a non entity.
And still I call you my friend!

(11.09.09)

HOPE

HOPE
Look into my eyes
Do they harbour innocence?
Or the vilest unsatiated passions?
Why for you seek the unattainable?
I drink of the stars at night
And sleep with the sun.
I’m, alien to moon
it seems so lethargic.
I must get before the sun rises
to sap up the shiny dews.
But still I know not a
morning from a night or vice versa.
I know not a bud from a flower
nor happiness from sadness.
I sleep with my eyes open so that
I’m not disturbed by dreams.
I smile at you, so do I to the
cosmos, everything is oneness!
Now look again into my eyes
what do you see?!
Keep it unto your mind
Tell me when I’m gone away
Gone far away so that I
May not see the dampness
of pain in your eyes!
(21/08/09)

BROKEN HEART

BROKEN HEART

Since you went away
I ceased to write.
Seems words never existed.
I sit with a pen and paper
But words elude me.
My heart is blank drained of love
it’s love that make me write, I find !
Do my thoughts reach you?
Do the pangs of my heart reach you?
Are there still the vibrations of understanding?
Perhaps…..
Come again to me in the dead of night
And we shall talk till the sun peeps in,
quarrel about petty things and make friends again anew,
Or speak in an erudite manner of rocks, minerals and microscopes,
Share a sweet kiss one and thousand,
Unsatiated we shall go for more.
Oh dear wanderer!
Explore thee the unexplored.
Set your feet on virgin lands
Sow the seeds of amity and
reap the harvests in plenty.
And I shall pray thus for thee,
“Calm be thy mind,
Safe be thy journeys,
Easy be thy tasks,
And happy thee return!”
to me as of always.
And when you return,
Bring me a ray of sun
A beam of moonlight
A fragrant petal, a gentle breeze,
and your heart so fond ,red with love!
(29/08/09)

INNOCENT

I’m concerned for you
Friend dearest.
For you to be left alone
In the world so vile
Such innocence that you harbor
May not sustain you much longer.
When the old faces fades
Who shall keep you in company?
Men have duties, women are bonded
you so single shall be left so lonely.
Shy to faces you know not whom
Shy to words you know so well.
I wish I never knew you child
your plight, it makes my heart so frail!

HOPE

Beloved stranger,
So I call you.
No longer friend or foe.
I hear you when you me from afar
And speak my words from you heart!
That’s vibrations, which binds
hearts, fond, fonder, fondest.
I believed and revelled in the ‘prophesy’.
You spoke of rains, which drenched your youth
and of the love you lost for naught.
Together we shed tears for things bygone.
Together we smiled on our fruitful gains.
Tears were salty and smiles were sweet.
Times passed by and times to come.
Give you word to keep this bond
unto grave, this silent lore.
Promises made are made to break
So you broke, and broke my heart.
Left me lone without a word, a
breezy note, out in cold, beloved foe!
Come again if you may, for
my heart still sings the songs you taught.
My eyes still bear the dreams you sowed.
My lips still crave for the thousand kisses
My fingers seek their counterparts
Beloved stranger if ever come you may
Seek me beneath the bed of flowers
White for lilies and red for roses.
Here I keep my soul for you
Just in case, for want of a kiss!Or if you still fly in far off lands,
So be it, so be it,
its all right with me!

SACRIFICE
Our love my dear
is meant not for me
nor for you.
Leave it to the world
and be happy!

NOTHING
I oft wondered
what made you
so beloved to me.
Now I realise,
it is your non existence.

Why should you marry (and shouldn’t):Indian context

A man is perfect in himself
Unlike women
That he need not marry
So says my friend, single, whole.

But I was for marriage
I argued on the sense of belonging
And he blamed me for
Being an ordinary country lass1

Why does one marry I wondered
Confused, how does two aliens
Be companions for life and
Entwine their bodies in fondness! (to be contd.)

LOVE

I walk through roads
which leads to many a countries.
I am welcomed everywhere
No matter where I go.
I have a perpetual smile on my face
that mesmerizes even a ruffian.
Given a chance I permeate anything
and everything, animate or inanimate.
And kindles a glow that I alone can
and imparts eternal beauty.
I make hearts grow fonder
and imparts sweet pain in isolation.
I am beautiful, handsome and tall in one
And once you get to know me, you never forget me.
But when you get too much of me into head
idiots you become and happily walk to gallows for nothing.
Corrupt me not with the malice of carnal lust,
I am great when pure as lily.
Smite me not, for once smitten
I leave forever, leaving you in agony lifelong.

Solitary

It is a bliss to be alone
Chasing one’s own fancies,
Loving weird things and persons,
dreaming unlimited unhindered.

Solitude is,
emptiness in a cozy cocoon
a glossy mirror, a sweet void;
which reflects us back,
echoes our own sound to us
from eternity to eternity.

Not a single leaf wafts unsolicited,
nor a drop of rain wasted.
Lonely moments are always fruitful
rich and lovely, virgin blossom!

Bring not in a ray of sun
A gleam of moonlight
A lovely woman nor
A note of music!

Leave me unto me my peace
I am happily wedded to my mate
Let it be so until I die.
Loneliness and me
Oh! What a pair we make.

SYMPATHISING

Sympathising

So to speak,
There are miseries umpteen around us.
An amputated leg, a hollow socket
An orphan kid, cries of agony.

War time miseries far away
But the wind brings echoes
Of doleful hearts, heavy as lead
Shed a drop dear, for its out pain too!

Retarded minds crafts foxy plots
Knows not that blood is red
Yours or mine, theirs or ours
Misplace bombs even on tombs!

One dead, two dead or a thousand,
News on papers that’s all right.
So far it’s not you and me
No one cares and life goes on.

Do shed a drop dear, for its out pain too!

SCHIZOPHRENIC

SCHIZOPHRENIC

I hear voices all around me
In daylight and nightfall.
Threatening, pleading, murmuring
Hateful and at time amorous.
Male or female, I know not
But human yes, sure of that.I get to work but they drag me out
Such powerful are they that never cease.
A drizzle at first gains on as shower.
Come out, they say, one or many I know not,
Come with us to the world of eternity.
Deprived of my solitudes I grew
From infancy to the whiteness.
I never were alone the voices came to me
Every now and then devouring my peace.
At times they threaten to kill me
a wary bus, a deep pool, a gust of air.
So I’ve quit travelling, not even
venture beyond my thresholds.
Sometimes they speak from the sun
each ray an individual voice.
So I painted my windows black
Drew the curtains and pulled over a sheet.
But still through the air they
whisper, each whisp a thunder in my ears.
I plug my ears, my eyes and nose
It is suffocation, but relieving.
Now they speak through my heart
A thud thud every now and then
So I pulled out the eerie thing
And shred to pieces, and now its tranquility.

SORROW

SO TO SPEAK,
THERE ARE MISERIES UMPTEEN AROUND US.
AN AMPUTATED LEG, HOLLOW SOCKET
AN ORPHAN KID, CRIES OF AGONIES!
WAR TIME MISERIES FAR AWAY
BUT THE WIND BRINGS ECHOES
OF DOLEFUL HEARTS, HEAVY AS LEAD.
SHED A DROP DEAR FOR ITS OUR PAIN TOO!
RETARDED MINDS CRAFTS FOXY PLOTS
KNOWS NOT THAT BLOOD IS RED
YOURS OR MINE, THEIRS OR OURS,
MISPLACE BOMBS ON TOMBS.
ONE DEAD, TWO DEAD OR A THOUSAND
NEWS ON PAPERS THATS ALL RIGHT.
SO FAR ITS NOT YOU AND ME
NO ONE CARES AND LIFE GOES ON.

DO SHED A TEAR DEAR, FOR ITS OUR PAIN TOO.

FAREWELL

FAREWELL

IAM SAD

MY FRIEND SPEAKS TO ME IN MONOSYLLABLES
WHY? I KNOW NOT
IT NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE.
HE SAID JUST A ‘HELLO’ WHEN WE
MET LAST TIME AND THEN PARTED.
A HELLO IS HOLLOW
A HI IS A LIE
I NEED TOBE SPOKEN TO
AS OF YEST AS OF ETERNITY.
I AM RESERVED WHEN IT COMES TO
SPEAKING WITH AIR AND VOCAL CORD.
BUT, WHEN IT COMES TO BLACK AND WHITE
I BECOME PERENNIAL.
PERHAPS, I SHOULD HAVE MAINTAINED BREVITY,
AFTER ALL FAMILIARITY BREEDS CONTEMPT.
DID I CORRUPT YOUR SOLITUDE BY MY WORDS?
DID I TRESSPASS INTO YOUR SANCTITY?
DID I MAKE RIPPLES IN THE OTHERWISE CALM WATERS?
DID I………..
IF SO, I MAKE MYSELF A BIG SORRY
AND RETIRE TO MY COCCOON,FOR
WHEN I GROW WINGS AND BE A BUTTERFLY,
I ALWAYS OPEN UP TO FONDNESS IN SUCH PROFUSION.
SO DEAREST, I RETIRE TO MY NICHE
I CLOSE MYSELF TO EXTERNITY.
YOU MAKE FRIENDS WITH THE COSMOS!
I RETIRE, A NON ENTITY!

ON HOW A POEM IS WRITTEN

ON HOW A POEM IS WRITTEN

BURY A LOVE DEEP IN YOUR HEART
AWAY FROM THE VAGARIES OF THE MUNDANE WORLD.
SECRECY IS IMPORTANT, ALTHOUGH THE
LANGUAGE OF THE HEART IS ESOTERIC.
LET A THOUSAND NEEDLES PIERCE IT
IT MAY BLEED, THE PAIN AGONIZING.
CARE NOT, FOR THE RESULT IS WORTH IT
BEAR IT WITH A SMILE AS LONG AS YOU CAN
AND WHEN THE PAIN BEGINS TO CEASE
FONDLE IT WITH A BLOOM OF UTMOST BEAUTY AND FRAGRANCE.
IT’S THEN THE HEART BEGINS TO SING
SONGS THAT LIFTS YOU TO HEIGHTS ANON
MINGLED WITH THE BEAUTY FRAGRANCE AND PAIN
VERSES THAT LEAVES YOU SPEECHLESS.
BLESSED ARE THOSE THAT HEAR IT.
AND EVEN MORE, ARE THOSE THAT SING IT OUT TO THE WORLD!

ECSTASY

YOUR SMILE ON MY LIPS
AND, MY LOVE IN YOUR HEART
OH LORD!
WHAT ECSTASY!

RAIN

LUST


RAIN! RAIN! RAIN!
*BRINGS FOND MEMORIES PAST
SUMMONS TO THE HEART
FIRST LOVE, FIRST PAIN,* FIRST….

DRENCHED IN THE PEARL DROPS
WAS IT A WATER FAIRY?!
FULL WERE THE LIPS
THAT I MAY…

A DROP ON MY FOREHEAD
LOVE OF MY YOUTH!
A SHOWER ON MY BODY
ETERNAL LOVE!

I CLOSE MY EYES TO RAIN
AND HEAR HER SINGING ‘GAIN.
“FOR YOU I COME
FOR YOU I GO !”

SHE SWISHES, SWAYS AND
RISE AND FALLS, IN JOVIAL FOLLY
DRIVES ME MAD, MAKES ME LAUGH
AND LAUGHS WITH ME!

RAIN OH DEAR THAT WETS MY HEART!
LEAVE NO NOT ME,
NOR CEASE TO BE.
I’M YOURS FOR ONE AND ALL!

(*COURTESY; FRIEND)

Who am I
Guess who!
Does everyone ask this question to onseself?
As I perhaps?!
Long ago I asked this when I sucked the loveout of a beautiful flower.
Pretty wings, a world unlimited to explore.
The world inside the petals of a bloom!
No worries, no hassles,you choose you pick.
Time soon came to a halt.But still the question came to me,who am I?
Who am I?
Guess who!
I searched for my entity,I walked through the plains,scaled snow- clad mountains where golden lotus' bloom
birds, flowers, man and beast,many a company I had.
Cheerfully confident of my mission,I marched forward.
"You are I myself,who else can you be?" said the blue eyeswhich bloomed in the pleasant darkness of intimacy.
Drunk as I was in the nauseating amorousnesssquealed in confirmation.
Ecstasy is the fond child of transience.
Shrivelled, shrunk and dishevelled,I collected myselvesand dragged through the paths of sanity via insanity.
Revelations come unexpected!
I saw myself in the wayside blooms,in the dirt, in the tiniest grains of sand,
in the earth and the sky and the shining stars.
The Sun, the moon, the universe viewed me with my eyes,l
oved with my heart!
Indeed! I was God!
Blaspheme?!
Pardon me.
But, I insist.
o am

Eternal

I'm happy that you are there for me always
I'm happy that I have not seen you
I'm happy that I will never see you ever
I'm happy that we will never get bored of each other
I'm happy that our love will remain forever so
What all can a sunray do to a little flower!

SO SIMPLE AS THIS

A bud,
opens a petal;
a flower
loses fragrance
dies!